my head hurts

My head hurts in two ways: physically because my shoulders haven't relaxed in what seems like forever; mentally because my brain refuses to clear itself of the billion thoughts I've had over the past week. Discerning God's will is insanely tough. I have a really important decision to make in the next couple weeks, but I can't make it with all this school work and stuff going on. Hooray for Thanksgiving break, even if it's only a week. Hopefully I'll be able to clear my head.

At least I'm not under attack anymore. Last weekend I was dying. I had soooo many degrading thoughts...I was physically and mentally exhausted, and Satan took full advantage of that. I'm okay now, though.

I feel very relieved that Worship Night is over...now I can just go to Cru tomorrow then to Harry Potter...and then ruin my Friday with an Italian exam...and then go home to bed.

No lie. Bed.

I just realized I haven't been ice skating yet this fall. What the heck. Not cool. I'm going to the Pens game on Black Friday. Very cool. It was that or the Backyard Brawl...and I chose hockey...because hockey is better...and...warmer...(ironic).

Oh, right, so the point of this blog...one time at Chestnut Ridge, Pastor Tim talked about having a "pot of constriction" that keeps you from growing. I can feel my pot of constriction cracking, and it is scaring the crap out of me. It's definitely a great thing, but it's also very scary. I feel very restless...as though something big is going to happen...and that is scary, too.

I'll end by saying something I tend to say a lot: it's hard to have an eternal perspective when you can't see what's in front of you. Scary stuff.