excuse me?

Yesterday in mass, the priest said, "When you are making a tough decision, just remember that God is good and He loves us. He can't help you with your decision, but remember, He is good. Nothing is impossible for God."

Um, excuse me, Father? Where is the relationship?! I submit that my life absolutely, positively sucked before I let God help me with my decisions! Seriously. How can you feel close to God without that relationship? How can you find joy without that relationship? How can you feel at peace without that relationship?

How do you even know that God is good without the relationship? How can He show us love without the relationship? Ugh. This blows my mind. How did I ever experience God without the relationship? Oh yeah, that's right, I didn't.

This not only blows my mind; it also breaks my heart. So many people believe they know God just because they "pray" and have learned a lot about the aspects of their faith. So many people just accept it blindly and then do nothing about it. Where is the conviction?! And how can you pray without a relationship?

Allow me to get back to the main subject: "He can't help you with your decision...." Well, of course He can't if you don't let him! God knows us better than we know ourselves; He should be present in every big decision we make! He alone knows what is best for us; we don't. Saying that He can't help us and then following it with "nothing is impossible for God" is incredibly contradictory. Basically, it's saying that it's impossible for God to help us.

Huh?! Wait! That's not right! Whoa! Hold on there!

Thus are my thoughts. It's really tough to get these feelings out and live above reproach. I need God to heal my heart from the damage done to it before He chose me. I am still so bitter...but I don't want to feel like that.

But what about when it's seriously wrong? This is seriously wrong. Saying that God can't help you with a decision completely contradicts saying that nothing is impossible for God. This isn't an attack on a religion. It's an attempt to clear up a clear contradiction. I don't know. My mind is all over the place right now.

Lord, give me peace.